SERENADE AVENUE

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Happy First Monthsary, Farhad

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First Kiss

2009-12-02T23:24:00.002+08:00

It was on 02 January, nothing romantic about the place - Boon Lay old Bus Interchange. I was suppose to meet the boy for dinner and shopping for my brother's birthday present.

The night before the meeting, he asked me to be his girlfriend over a conversation on the phone and I said I didn't know what to say. So he told me that when we meet, to give him a peck on the cheek if its a yes and just act like normal, if its a no. I was anxious and very happy at that point of time!

Dressed in my favourite red lace dress, I met up with him and gave him a peck on the cheek while walking to the restaurant to have our dinner. The night went along so well and I was glad to be in the arms of my new boyfriend. When he had to send me home, we (what my good friend calls, "lips communication") exchanged kisses. He was aware that I have never been kissed so he placed his palms gently on my chin and laid a soft one upon my lips. A gush of anxiety went through my body and I kissed him back. Our eyes met and I blushed a smile. He sent me off into the cab and I was the happiest girl.

That was my first kiss.

I'm glad I didn't turn into a frog! I can't wait to catch Princess & The Frog! Check out the awesome teaser!

I love Disney Princess! Doesn't matter that I'm 18 now, I grew up with it and I still love it! My personal favourite - Sleeping Beauty. Infact, I want to name my daughter Aurora, Farahnisha Aurora. Oh lovely! Till here, wait for my next photo updates!

Catch The Princess and the Frog in cinemas 10th December 2009!

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So many eye candy here! I love this.

T.I & Hayden Christensen! :B

Oh, Chris Brown fans, he's in here too.

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Mini Reunion

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Yes, me. Guess I got my "at least 3 hours" sleep wish granted. Dang! Should've wished for a full 8 hours. Shucks!

2009-09-21T00:52:00.002+08:00

Aidilfitri Boyfriend

2009-09-20T13:23:00.000+08:00

Sleeeeeep!

2009-09-20T06:15:00.001+08:00

For Mimi

2009-09-19T17:44:00.002+08:00

Dearest love,

Like I told you on twitter, you know this day would come even if you deny it with all your heart. Everything in life would come to an end. Hate to say, even our friendship one day. Every living thing in life doesn't live forever. Even the oldest tree in the forest gets cut down these days. People change and they forget to tell - even you, me and as he is human, he changed as well - for both the better and for the worst. You know it yourself how much he's changed.

Every break up is only the universe's way of telling you that no matter how great your relationship was, no matter how wonderful the guy happened to be and no matter how complete you feel with him around you - it is nothing compared to the one guy whom Allah has created specially for you. This heartbreak you feel is only to make your heart feels stronger when it heals - that is one thing I've realised from all my past heartbreaks. It pains to remember that you and him were such loving couples and the sacrifices done was really too much to ask. As someone who saw both of you from the beginning of the relationship, I am saddened by the sudden break up but I am not disappointed at all. Sometimes, to give up doesn't mean you're weak, Mimi! It only means you're strong enough to let go.

A broken heart is not easy to mend. Its not a duty of another guy to mend it either. When you fell in love, you gave your heart to him, trusting he won't break it - risking it. Now that it is, its your responsibility to mend it and put back the pieces together again. Your friends around you can only help you pick up the pieces and make you feel loved and prevent you from thinking you're the most loneliest girl in the universe. Our advice and words of wisdom can only do so much but if you really want to feel better and mend whatever is broken, you have to do it yourself.

Please Mimi, you're the most strongest & patient person I know. Remember I said that everyone will hurt you. Its up to you to choose who is worth the pain. Even memories don't live in your head forever. You barely remember what you were doing on this exact date and time, 16 years ago, did you? So, cry to your heart's content, pray for everything to get better, built a bridge and get over it. For sooner or later, getting over the break up is what you have to do. Why stay in a heartbreak longer?

You got me, Ten-On (the lights please!), Adam and your girlfriends right where you want us. If we all mean nothing to you compared to him then its to my dismay but one thing for sure, I know we will all be here for you anytime of the day. Helping to pull you through this.

Like all the times that you've been there for me, I will be there for you twice as much. So pull yourself together and hug yourself. No one deserves to love you more than you. :)

xoxo S.

Best MJ Cover! A one man show!

2009-09-18T15:34:00.000+08:00

Happy 18th!

2009-09-17T11:29:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, WIRA!

This little piggy, is my secondary school sweetheart who has been such an irritating and annoying boy. If I had a single nerve left for the day, he would ignore it at first and then start to get on it like as if its some kind of trampoline! At times I feel like killing him but I'll kill for him anytime. A great friend, someone who makes sense at the most random of times. A blissful companion from those good young ol days! Thanks for making my secondary school years a fun one. I miss you.

Have a great birthday! No zebras here, go to your girlfriend.

Take care!

p/s: the shoe is still with you, right? ;)

xoxo S.

Hello, again.

2009-09-17T06:22:00.002+08:00

Hello.

How long has it been?

I've been active on SR.NDH sites - tumblr & onsugar. That's in case you haven't kept up to date.

Why the move? I haven't been getting much visitors over here. I keep updating but no responses or acknowledgement. Blogger is getting boring. I won't delete this, that's for sure.

Go ahead, dig my past on the archives if you're that pathetic. To know what's happening, go somewhere else.

SR.NDH

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A lil on how I've been.. More on the downside sadly.

Two days ago, I had an ultimately bad revisit to my feelings of betrayal caused by the bitch who appeared to be the bestfriend who had a major crush on the boyfriend because he decided to talk things through. After 2 years, we finally had a clean break up. (Y) Other than that, I've been ogling over heels, boots & Nikes!

Raya's coming. Ramadan's ending. Guess what, I'm still dateless.

Bye.

One thing He'll never know.

2009-09-01T15:15:00.003+08:00

How do you explain a feeling whereby you keep inside for so long? There's a feeling of regret but I choose to ignore. I got only myself to blame. I had him right where I want him but my eyes saw someone else. The both of us didn't even work out at all.

Both of us moved on, I avoid talking to him when I'm in a relationship because my feelings are jumbled up everytime I do but everytime I face a break-up, a hurdle or when I'm simply troubled by the littlest things, he's the one who always turns my frown upside down. He makes me feel better. As sarcastic as he is, he is direct and shoves reality in my face. He tells me like it is and nobody else does that.

I guess its true what they say - a girl and a boy can never be just friends.
Other than Dee - who is genetically a girl but acts more like a guy, he's the one person I can talk about anything under the sun with and won't assume to conclusions, misjudge me or keep their honest opinion to themselves. He humours me and knows me pretty well. I can just go on but it there's no fruit out of this at all.

When you have a chance, don't blow it. There are second chances in life but somethings happen once in your lifetime. Treasure those.

Boys will be boys...

2009-08-29T02:12:00.003+08:00

Hello.

Boys will be boys.

They treat you like you're the only one that matters and when they got you hooked on them, they start to mistreat you slowly and then that one day that you need them most, they decide to bail on you. Your heartache, your cheeks are tainted and your bed is filled with tissues. Still you forgive them when they come back to you with those puppy eyes and charming smile, apologising.

They say all sorts of wonderful things to please you and they promise all sorts of ridiculous things to get your trust and compassion in the relationship. When you're 101% committed, they go against everything they've ever said and break almost every promise they've ever made. Your heartache, your cheeks are tainted and your bed is filled with tissues. Still you forgive them when they come back to you with those puppy eyes and charming smile, apologising.

They bring you to the most beautiful places and create some pretty wonderful memories with you to get your attention and win your heart. Comes the day you give them all your attention and you pour your true feelings, they act like they just don't care and do the moment injustice. Your heartache, your cheeks are tainted and your bed is filled with tissues. Still you forgive them when they come back to you with those puppy eyes and charming smile, apologising.

There are times that they discuss their future with you and tell you things that makes you believe you're set for a wonderful life ahead with them. When you build your dreams upon it, all they do is crash it down only after you have sex with them. Your heartache, your cheeks are tainted and your bed is filled with tissues. Now do you forgive them when they come back to you with those puppy eyes and charming smile, apologising?

Its hard to understand the different genders but please at least understand a Girl's worth lies in their pride & dignity not the ego. You can do just about anything to a girl but don't start messing with our pride & dignity if you don't want to be doubted nor black listed in our view for the rest of your life because once you mess with it, the ego takes place. I promise you, it ain't as sweet as you think it is.

Right now, I just don't understand the message you're penetrating to me. Make yourself clear and get to the point. Its nothing tacit and I refuse to assume because I've learnt from my mistakes. So unless you tell me like it is, I suggest you stop giving me false hope, fake signs, meaningless words and just leave me alone.

Relationship don't revolve around sex and pleasure. That's not what a commitment is all about and unless you can understand that, stop acting like you're all grown up and ready to be the father of my child. I may be 18 and too young to think of my future but at least I'm determined to make it a happy and successful one.

2009-08-27T21:00:00.002+08:00

Hello.

There's a light at the end of every tunnel.

As a friend sadly greifs his father's death, I myself think of someone who was once truly meaningful in my life - Nur Farahnisha. Her young tragic death never leaves me. I keep replaying her last moments spend in my arms. Just these few words got me tearing and on this holy month, I pray for her and the best for her family.

For those who have lost someone, let's not tear ourself each passing festivity. Life goes on and since we're still alive, let's make the most out of it. Since we never know when death might come knocking on our door; I suggest we stop taking things for granted. Go hug someone and tell them you love them before its too late.

I know you will never read this but Farahnisha, I miss you. So much.

Your passing holds no interest for again I carry on,
Empty on the inside, I await another dawn.

Endless searching for another - a substitute at best,
Someone I pretend is you, in hopes this grief may rest.

Their arms offer no comfort, no solace in their touch
I pretend they all are you - the one I miss so much.

Her Sweet Sixteen

2009-08-24T00:09:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Happy Sweet Sixteen Nurul Syasya!

24th August, 16 years ago; your dear mom gave birth to a beautiful angel. Look at you now, look how much you've grown. The changes all these years, the heartbreaks and heartaches, the laughter and the smiles, the anger and the grudge, the pessimism and the contradictions - its all life my dearest. As you continue to age, I pray for the best in time to come and I believe you'll make the best out of every opportunity given.

Although time may not always be by your side, remember that life is always fair. In our eyes, its always not because we choose to think of the umimportant wants instead of sparing a thought for other's important needs. I'm not trying to change you everytime I ask you to look on the bright side of life, I'm just making you see that life is full of possibilities and not only the thoughts in your head. I'm not trying to force you into something everytime I tell you to do something, I'm just making sure you don't miss out on the lessons life brings before its too late. I'm definitely not judging you everytime I'm telling you off, its just me teaching you that life don't always go our way. I hope I wasn't hurting you everytime I tell you a truth that hurts, I'm just trying to be honest.

Now that you're sixteen, I'm glad I can bring you to the movies and actually have more choices. Now that you're sixteen, I hope you won't head to underage parties without asking, well at least me if you don't want to ask your brothers or inform your parents about it. At this point, most of life's pursuit will be tough; I hope you're ready. I think you are, I want you to be.

There's so much to say to you and if I were to continue this, you'd probably stop get bored. So, lets leave whatever I am going to type to be experienced by yourself in time to come. I love you always and forever. For the both us and only for the both of us do I believe in forever.

I wish you the best in life and the happiness fruits. You rip what you soe and I will always be here for you; whatever the circumstances. Now, are you happy with that Gucci handbag you just got? ;)

Lots of love,
Sara Nadiah

PIZZA!

2009-08-22T18:55:00.003+08:00

Hello.

So its Meat Diva & Hawaiian Pizza from Rite Pizza for 1st day of fasting month break fast dinner! I just got to know that Canadian Pizza don't do delivery on Saturdays! This is a fact. No kidding man.

Here's wishing all Muslims a great fasting month ahead!

p/s: Air Katira = Basil Seed Drink
Stop asking.

A Secret

2009-08-22T00:47:00.002+08:00

Hello.

On a contradiction note, this secret will no longer be a secret because it is worldwidely posted on a free global search web.

I honestly, have grown a strong liking to chinese guys. :)

You Will Never Understand

2009-08-19T00:34:00.004+08:00

Hello.

You will never understand. Don't question because I won't waste my time even trying to make you understand. Just read, shush and buzz. :) This girl doesn't want Mr Maybe, so don't be wasting my time.

Does your heart beat like mine? Unsteadily picking up the pace with every thought, any precious memory tied to you? I am tied to you. You are a brick attatched to a rope tethered to my foot. Yes, it is you who pulls me down fast, the bubbles swirling around me. Panic and confusion suck the air from my lungs, but it was I who jumped from the bridge. As the weight of you and my decisions pulls me down I do not regret it. Even though I cannot breath, I am tied to you and I will not let go. I will remain drowning and I will not put up a fight.

I am the one standing in front of a loaded gun. Whether you are the arm and fingers that pull the trigger or the weapon does not matter. I do not run. But when you find me in a pool of my own blood you will find a letter. It is my last word to you so that you may know my blood stained confession that could only be revealed in death, for courage was no match for rejection.

And how does your heart beat holding mine? I am the patient in the ER whose only hope is in your hands. You pulse and pulse, but you don't really mean to save me? How does it feel to have my life in your hands? With my last breath I would mutter only your name and nothing else would need to be said. The truth can be seen in my eyes. You were the death of me, but you gave me life.

Reward Sunday

2009-08-17T02:49:00.004+08:00

Hello.

I'm done with revision for Enterprise & Cognitive as targeted. I'm so proud of myself because despite having Syasya over the whole day with Syafeeqa in the early hours and Sheeq at the later hours, as well as having to care for my 2 younger brothers who are unfortunately down with high fever, cough and vomitting, I managed to acheive what I planned to do on Sunday. Putting aside the fact that I didn't get my Starbucks this week, it feels good to know that I've been a good and responsible sister. For that, I rewarded myself with:

Tomorrow... tomorrow... tomorrow... Gosh, I'm so feeling Garfield right now. Monday Blues. Can you feel it? I thought this Mathly Monday is gg to drive by after this week but I forgot (Idk why I remember now) that next Monday is Math UT3! *bangs head on the wall* Off to bed. Good night. :(

p/s: ever tasted bandung with soya bean? go try.

Muggggggggggg.

2009-08-15T00:24:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Can you feel the heat? UT3 is coming really soon. Oh how fast time flies this year! I can't believe this! Classmates are on intensive revision for UT3; I've been procastinating my revision hours. I seriously think I should get down to practice questions for Math & Science. I should print them out and do them in the library without the laptop. It'll be much much better. Less distraction. *thumbs up*

So, I've put it like this. Since I won't be able to have my Starbucks today neither did I have it yesterday, I am seriously considering heading down on Sunday for a good study with good coffee. Hopefully with a good, cooperative, kick-ass, helpful study mate. Other than that, I'm studying Enterprise & Cognitive on Sunday. With written notes and such; it all heads down to Secondary School revision ways. ;)

Lately, I have put that "I hate Mondays" personality aside because I have Cognitive every Monday but now... I have MORE reasons to hate Mondays! I'm starting a new week with Math module this coming week. Ending it off with UT3, is not a good way either. PFFT! Luckily, Dee have already asked me to accompany her to Suntec for a JobFair & Dinner date afterwards. *thumbs up & wide grins* Thank goodness, this Mathly Monday is only for the last week of the semester. So I'll do my Math practice questions on Monday & Science on Tuesday. As Communications; I think I'll do it over next Sunday. :D Yeap, the week's shecdule is done. Oh well, hectic week coming ahead. After that; 5 weeks vacation. Thank goodness for the Job Fair coming next Saturday! :D

As for now, I shall put on my thinking cap and strictly get into study mode. Had my fair share of laughter and mischiefs the past few weeks, its time to get serious now. Best laughter yesterday with Ella in the skytrain to Terminal 2 after dinner at Popeyes together with Hel! We were naming PLACES that starts with "D" and out of nowhere, Ella shouted, "DISHWASHER!" with such confidence. [imagine me rofl] Gosh, what a night!

Okayyy, tomorrow is the big day that Arif, Ella, Nadiah, Syazwan & yours truly have been waiting for - THE AMAZING RACE 2009! Off to bed now. Good night! :D

Positivity pays.....

2009-08-11T20:39:00.004+08:00

Hello.

I have finally come to realize that he’s just a guy, a special one, maybe, but he’s not mine. I don’t need to do things to make him love me. If he wanted to, he would. Although it is never safe to assume, I am assuming it is safe to say that he has never had true feelings for me.

I am an optimist and I'll stick to that.

Suffocate

2009-08-09T04:11:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Lately, I've been thinking of the phrase that says, "If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you; then its yours. However if it doesn't, its just the universe telling you that its not meant to be." At the same time, another quote floats in my head, "Whats meant to be will find its way for what's meant to be is meant to be."

With that, I came to realise that I have absolutely no reaosn to rush and by now most of you prolly already know that the final statement to my last two post was a false alarm. xD Cheeky much? Anyway, what I'm about to blog about might be emotionally inclined. Its not like I asked of you to read this and I am blessed with the free of hate taggers on my tagboard. I would like to keep it that way. I hope that this post will not change that.

Imitation is the greatest form of flattery. I don't blame you for copying me and the things I post on my blog/wordpress/tumblr/facebook/tweet/mypace or even friendster for that matter -you're just being human, envying the things you see; thinking, "Why didn't I come up with that?" then you rip it right off and use it like its yours. If you think that pisses me off, well it doesn't. I'm proud of it cause at least I'm your source of inspiration. Why am I not bothered at the very least? Simply because I am not original. I am a combination of all the other successful inspirators, motivators and life philosophers. I live by my words and I learn from their mistakes. I commit my own and I evolved from the lesson that was taught through the painful process of recovery after the apology phase. Who I am is not just who I'm meant to be, there's more to me than you think there is. I always tell the people around me that everyone will hurt us and its up to us to choose who is worth the pain; no one else lives up to that more than I do. (Although I sometimes need to get that phrase knocked back into my head when I get an emotional breakdown - hey, I'm only human you know)

I don't know what some of might be thinking as you continue reading. I don't know what you expect me to blog about in the next line, well; I'll tell you something. Neither do I. I have no idea what I'm ranting about for this post but I just feel that I have something to tell. Something that I want to let out but I'm not sure if this is the right time and the right medium to actually do it. Its something that would start a controversy and the lubrication to my name on people who has the nickname "411" stamped on their forehead. Oh, not forgetting the hypocrites and haters that will always remain beneath me no matter how hard they try to get on top; I'm sorry but I think you're better off where you are - that's why God put you there. So instead of ranting what my inteded intentions were, I'll just go on.

No, its nothing to do with Religion although I have something really offensive in my laptop folder. Sean has already seen it but I don't plan on getting myself into trouble. I may take it as a joke but some others won't. It's a sensitive matter especially to those who do not have the slightest sense of humour.

Scrap all that. I should be hitting the covers! Swimming for 4 hours with Nad & Ella was great today. You should see me naked, you'll have a ball of laugher from the different skin tone my body bears right now. After swimming, tutored Syasya & Syafeeqa at RP Resource Centre benches. Fell asleep for awhile when they didn't need my help. The 2 clowns headed over to my place and I gave away some clothes that I don't wear anymore. When they left at 10pm, I had a quick dinner, get online and when I got bored, I watched Obsessed. A nice but rather slow movie. Now, I'm yawning. I think you are too, its contagious isn't it! Okay, I should get going.

Flood the tagboard with love love love! Download My Addiction Remix! :D
Bye.

My Addiction

2009-08-08T23:48:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Click here to download the track!

My Addiction Remix

(KHRL)
Shawty you get in line for the next selection
Skip that i know you want to spend my cash &
Stash & ,
Higher than you’re cappin’
Feeling flyshit but you know you’re just crappin’
and
Rockin rocawear to the platinum
Bobbing on the head, Louis V tryna to matching em
Yes, and you know I rock lois denim,
And you know your man is gonna gonna get em get em,
Right? (Too late)
You know I love it when you rock that Louis,
Polo on the chest, you like to ride it dirty,
Versace on the shades, a plus point to me baby,
Gucci in her hand, make your man GC(Gone Case) baby.
So,
Whatchu think I’m already here for?
I like you rockin IJ’s like a pinafore.
you know I take you to the top to the pinnacle
All your man gotta do is just to be cynical

(Cassie)
HOOK
I'm addicted to you
I'm addicted to you
I'm addicted to you
You're my addiction

I'm addicted to you
I'm addicted to you
I'm addicted to you
You're my addiction

(HEL)
she she she is the one who...
she she she is the one you...
me me me gots ta have you...
im still stutterin like i once do

let the drums roll, play the kicks in
shes is the drug to this addiction
no need for rehab pass the medication
she got me lovesick since the first kissin

right to the textin late night hollarin
never cross the linin straight to the sexin
but urm... if she wants too
imma play my part theres no rejection
take a chill pill baby im just playin
only do it for the love like Kim Kardashian
and urm... they say love is blindin
but i dont really care cuz she be my vision

(Ryan)
It started off with a kiss (uh huh)
Never expectin' this (uh huh)
And now I'm here copin' with
My addiction (addiction)

It started off with a kiss (uh huh)
Never expectin' this (uh huh)
And now I'm here copin' with
My addiction
While all the girls say

(Cassie)
I'm addicted to you
I'm addicted to you
I'm addicted to you
You're my addiction

I'm addicted to you
I'm addicted to you
I'm addicted to you
You're my addiction

(Fab)
ay lemme find out i got you amy wined out
i get em hooked like i threw a fishing line out
my white girl keep me Federlined out
im to G so i stay gucci signed out (gucci)
and i get so much attention
they sit and talk about me like intervention
they say that white phantom look so cocaine
i hop out the suicides lookin' so Kobain
and i just Courtney Love when they know your name
they like loso we already know so damn
they come back one more grams
right back like Lindsay out the program

(Cassie)
I'm addicted to you
I'm addicted to you
I'm addicted to you
You're my addiction

I'm addicted to you
I'm addicted to you
I'm addicted to you
You're my addiction

Its on loop, baby!

Something New!

2009-08-08T01:11:00.004+08:00

Hello.

Those are just a few of my course mates during DOAL 1 Day Programme during the term break.

Anyway, I am not blogging from blogger because somehow I couldn’t load the post page. Perhaps just a hiccup for blogger. Otherwise, I am blogging from Windows Live Writer. I just found out I can blog here. So the jakon, can? :D

I’ve been better lately and I’m really glad. Certain things are off my mind because I just choose to dispose it as I seriously don’t think its worth the pain. Been keeping myself busy lately to keep my mind from wandering to silly thoughts that could trigger my emotional side. One reason I’m glad UT3 is coming, its massive revision time!

I got an A for my Comms UT2 but an expected E for my Science UT2 as it was God-darn difficult! Half the UT was on Chemistry, so my Biology inclined brain which had Physics on the other end had no drawers that were filled with Chemistry information. Therefore, it explains the expectation. Oh heck that, I’m aiming high for UT3. This is not demotivating me, at all.

I have a new hobby. Its called Swimming! Tomorrow, I’ll be heading to RP Pool with Ella for a swim in the morning. That calls it for my Saturday! After that, Sara is heading home to study. Why study at home, you may question. Simply because I met up with my graduating classmates from Queensway Sec earlier today and guess what! Isman accidentally placed my laptop battery in Fazlee’s bag. Wonderful! –.-

I’m off to bed but before that, I want to announce that I am in a relationship! ((:

There She Goes

2009-08-03T23:45:00.002+08:00

Hello.

I just completed another hurdle competition in life and I am very sorry to all those who were affected by it. It wasn't my intention in anyway to seek attention from anybody. Once in awhile, I need someone to tell me like it is.

The past few weeks were not an easy phase and I'm glad its all behind me now. How the present taunted my nights and how the past blinded my sunlight. It was all tormenting. I appreciate every listening ear, every helping hand and every shoulder I cried on.

Its true that life is never what it seems. We plan and He laughs. Life is simple, its just not easy but everyone have to live with it therefore it can't be that hard. From a musician's perspective, I have to say that life is a sweet and beautiful melody. Its the lyrics thats messed up.

I shall head to bed now. Gotta catch up on sleep! Swimming tomorrow baby! :D

Insomnia!

2009-08-03T02:51:00.003+08:00

Hello.

I don't know why but I just have to say that I really agree with Fai & Naqi that there is more to life than regrets. Life is a whole journey and there is no rush to plan our life out. Gosh, I'm eighteen for goodness sake. I still have 3 years ahead of me before I meet another crossroad which will effect my life in the upcoming years by then.

Its 3am on a Monday morning and I'm here blogging my thoughts out in hopes that I will fall asleep soon after. When I was on the traing back home earlier on, I was just thinking. Thinking of what the other people in the train were thinking. Its kind of psychotic but I enjoy doing that sometimes. Especially when my thoughts just want to run wild.

Then, something happened! I saw a penis! ROFL Yes! A vietnamese's penis head peeping out the unzipped pants of his! I couldn't help but burst out laughing that I had to alight at Tanjong Pagar and board the next train to continue my soul searching. Honest! Okay, drop this before it creates a thread on the tagboard.

My journey home was silent. Not a text message, not a call, not a tap on the shoulder. Oh how wonderful it would be if Ella and Nad were there. Like finally, FOR ONCE walking with Sara and she's not stopping to say Hello to someone or entertaining her HP for that matter. Heh, sorry my darlings! :( Put that aside, as the silence got me thinking; I finally understood what chances is all about.

Take chances, lots of them! Because honestly, no matter where you end up and with whom, it always ends up the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are. You learn and grow with each choice you make. Everything is worth it. Say how you feel, always. Be you and be okay with it. Give yourself that one chance to just be you then be surprised at how the world responds to you.

Don't regret over something you did because at one point in your life before it happened, it was something you wish to happen. Thoughts create reality, my friend.

On a brighter note, I'm having dinner date with Dee Desrosiers later tonight! Which reminds me, I need to catch some sleep! Its almost 3.30AM! Yikes! Okay, off to pee and sleep!

Up & Away!

2009-08-02T15:44:00.003+08:00

Hello.

I had great fun on Saturday! Had Seoul Garden with Syasya & Syafeeqa for early dinner at Causeway Point before I went to chill my Saturday away with Syasya at our usual spot. We headed down to Eon for a little while and was pretty impressed! Orchard Road can forget about putting lightings up for Xmas already! ^.^

Anyway, I hope the navigational blogskin does not hinder readers from visiting the site. I customized my Profile section and have listened to Dee's comment on linking up people. However, I filter the links. Sorry! :P

Okay, I'll update soonish. I have to shower and meet Rhoma to teach Bio! I ♥ Bio!

Aches.

2009-07-30T00:27:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Its coming to a week for my shoulder aches and I just got a morphine shot from the doctor. Now, I don't feel a thing. In a good way, I feel much better however I worry the side-effects and aftermath of the medication. What if it wears off? Will it be more painful? I hope the steroids prescription helps in relieving the nerve tension. =S

I missed Enterprise module today cause I didn't attend school. Damn, the pain was excruciating last night that I had to cry the pain out just to put myself to sleep which I only succeeded a few hours before I have to wake up for school. Therefore, I decided to just rest at home and listen to my body instead of draining myself out. I have to take care of myself cause I got no one to take care of me.

At the moment, I really miss Syasya & Dee Deros-spell it out yourself prata gorilla- alot! Its been eons since I met them. Okay, that's exaggerating much but you get my drift. :( Oh well, I hope to meet them soonish.

I have something on my mind but its hard to speak my mind here as it might just offend some people. How I wish I have someone who could really understand and debate with me about the questions I have on life, hope, desire, love, faith, soul, destiny, fate, etc. I enjoy living on philosophies.

I have alot of friends. I have tons of mates. I have plenty of homies. Would you be my enemy so I can keep you closer?

The Rain is Gone

2009-07-26T04:08:00.003+08:00

Hello.

Currently plugged in to Westlife's I Lay My Love On You with Syafeeqa over at her crib. Just going through old school shit and going through life's archives. Found some nasty truths and inserted some laughter here and there. I love my little girl alot! :)

I've been thinking. Who really have been there for me? Let's really put family aside because its pretty obvious they've been the one around no matter what. So, who really? Friends, they come and go. I do have friends who was with me since kindergaten - Afira but I'm not close to her and she don't know the shit life has been throwing at me. Years pass and its unpredictable how my group of friends hops from group to group. Don't get me started on boyfriends and relationships.

How many bestfriends have I had? First it was Farah but now I have no idea where or how is she. I don't even know if she is still alive. Then came along Noraini, Khairin, Hanis, Najihah, Shikin & Aisyah. Hello, where are they again? It moved on to the one person who I can safely say have been through almost everything with me; putting aside the 2 years that we were on a rough and rocky road for our friendship - Dewi. Gladly in Secondary school, I met Sakinah, Sya & Ais - nowadays, its just hard to keep the friendship active. Everyone's busy with commitments and such. As life goes on, came along people like Mimi, Patrick, Baim, Fate & Fatal.

Then the hard part came around, Syugah. That friendship was a great climb & I only realised that when I felt the hurt from that great fall of betrayal. Pretty nasty I must say but its life, I suppose. Gladly, I'm the kind who stays optimistic. Go ahead and proclaim that I'm unrealistic at least I earned my rights to say I live my life to the fullest.

As I get up and gather the pieces of my heart together, I met great people like Hel, Sheeq, Deeranae & Syasya. These are the few people who have been there since the last time I needed a helping hand to get back on my two feets. Still, I'm sorry to say their efforts are much a fiasco to bring me to commit to faith in a relationship and trust in friendship. Its just so hard.

When I stepped my journey onto Poly, whoever thought God would lead me to Ella, Nad, Syaz, Ryan, Ariff and all of E35F? As I smile and laugh my days away, I started to bond with the girl I told you I love in the earlier part of this post. I met Rhoma during the holidays and things just started falling into place.

Bestfriends. They really do come and go depending on your highs and your lows. I have had enough of protecting my friendship and always trying my best to be there for all of them. I reluctantly accept the bitter fact that we can't impress everybody.

The one person who have been there for me since my growing years other than family is none other than Dewi Nurinda and I love her to bits and pieces. I miss a part of me - it has got to be my fucking blur monkey fan. Thank you fucker. :)

Peace.
xoxo

Tell Me Something

2009-07-25T00:53:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Thats Danial Hakim. Looking good bro! ;)

I can't believe first semester is coming to an end already. Oh dear! As much as I am hoping for familiar faces in my new class next semester, I can't bring myself to leave E35F AY09/10 Semester 1! Boohoo!

I really need to sleep. My left shoulder hurts like a bitch and I've been ranting that to everyone! Its pissing me off! Bahhh! >=(

I Need To Know

2009-07-23T00:10:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Don't you just hate it when you feel that there is something going on between the two of you but you're just afraid to face the truth to yourself? Then you expect the other person to actually tell you like it is because you don't want to assume. However, when the other person don't let you know the truth of the matter, you start to feel indifferent and insecure.

I think I should stop now before emotions get the best of me.

Today's RJ, 16 July 2009

2009-07-16T18:31:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Who is one person in class that you respect? What would you want to learn from him/her?

Yes, that is my RJ for today. I have no idea what to write because my choices are to a few heads and to actually choose just one person kinds of puts me in a position that I don't like to be in. :(

I hope no one asks me who I choose to write about. I don't want to lie!

On another note..

2009-07-15T20:21:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Just few minutes ago I posted that happy post but for a fact, I'm not really all that jubilant right now.

Don't fucking treat me like a matchstick. Don't ask me to think of how you feel if you don't consider it yourself in the first place. Giving me the opportunity to feel this ugly is not helping either. The three of you are not just another group of people in my life. Do you really see the bad situation you're putting me in or are you just merely looking?

If I question you of your responsibility and mess with your priorities, how would you feel?

18th @ RP!

2009-07-15T19:36:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Yesterday made it seem like my birthday is never ending! I was feeling down and out after Math UT when I met up with Ella at the Resource Centre. We planned to chill with the usual coursemates at Cafe Esplanade. When we got there, only Sam and her boyfriend - Rizzy was there.

I called Ryan but she didn't pick up so we just waited. Out of nowhere, I heard my friends' voices singing a birthday song! When I looked up, I saw Syazwan walking towards me with a birthday cake! It was Chocolate Indulgence from Secret Recipe. They happen to plan this surprise for me so perfectly! I had no idea at all. Good job mates! ;)

I was dressed for the occasion, I suppose. It was destinied! I love love love my course mates for making it so special! Enwei, Ryan & Arif were there as well. Rhoma joined for a while. Thank you for everything! It was really sweeet! I need a dentist right about now! :B

They also got me a card and I was really surprised when I opened the card and saw Rhoma's and Ivan's wishes inside! It just so happens that Sam went over to their class the other day. Awwwwww, it was all just so perfect! I love every bit of the celebration! It took me a pretty long time to actually cut the beautiful cake. Thank God there was no candles, else I'll burst into tears immedietly! I feel that blowing the candle is the most greatest part of a birthday.

After the celebration, some had to go off early so there was only Nad, Ella & Syazwan left. We decided to play Truth or Truth? Unexpected questions came out and a confession was made! Cheydebah! However, the confession did not affect the friendship between the two in anyway. At least thats what I hope.

We headed home around 8pm. I was really ecstatic the whole time! Thank you once again.

Love!

Goooood Morning!

2009-07-14T09:07:00.002+08:00

Hello.

I just feel like ranting out this morning.

I'M HAVING TUMMY ACHE!!! :'((

Maybe

2009-07-13T17:56:00.001+08:00

Hello.

Grahhhhhhhhhhh. I miss him.
Ok bye.

Hypocrite

2009-07-11T03:45:00.004+08:00

Hello.

I've said this once and I'll say it again. We are all two-faced. We are all hypocrites. Try to deny? See the fact right there when you deny it. That's the best example.

So if you don't like me, I'll say this again. Its not my problem. Everyone has their own cup of tea. I just happen not to be yours so go fill your other cups because there's more tea coming my way then there is left in your pot.

Gosh, when will you people ever get it? Do not mistake my confidence for cockiness. I'm sorry but if there is something about me that gets on your last nerve, just tell me. That's the only way I can change. I won't know if you don't tell me. Be selfish, its your lost.

Morning!

Coincidence? Don't think so.

2009-07-11T00:08:00.004+08:00

Hello.

Its hard to wait around for something you know might never happen; but its even harder to give up when you know its everything you want. What is it that keeps us going on if it isn't hope? Indeed, hope is a very hard habit to break. To have faith in yourself is to believe that everything happens for a reason and accept reality no matter how bitter it is.

Knowing that everything happens for a reason, then how is it that there is such a thing called "coincidence"? Isn't it contradicting then? If you blog hopped your way here, was it a coincidence that the people you know happen to know the people I know, or are you fated to be reading this at this moment? If I happen to be blogging about something that you can really relate to, is it a coincidence? I can't possibly be reading your mind right? I had no intentions of helping you get through your situation. The purpose of this debate against myself is because of my own nature of always asking questions. I enjoy solving these mysteries in life and discovering facts that only make me a better person as a whole.

I don't believe in coincidences because I know that everything happens for a reason. So when you're out cheating on your partner, watching a movie with someone else and your partner happens to be sitting beside you with his/her pals, then you know it isn't a coincident. Its reality - fate. However, it isn't fair that we blame fate for everything that happens. We can't control whats fated to happen but we can control our destiny. That's why we're given choices.

That is why there are options in life. Life is fair afterall, it don't always go your way because we can't impress everybody and you're not the only living thing life has got to impress anyway. Who owes you a living if its not yourself? Options you make alters your path in life. Don't dwell on "What if's" because we can never move forward if we keep looking back. Finish what's on our plate.

Young puts it the best way, in life we carry three things in everything we do - love, soul, desire. In life itself there are three things that determines everything that happens and gives us to control of our own life - hope, fate and destiny. So, who's to say that we do not have a say in our own life? We all have our creator but He didn't make us to just lead a life He plans. He balanced the world therefore He is fair. Life is fair.

Why do we all think its unfair? Simple. Our desire keeps growing and we will never be satisfied with what we have. My last words for this post, the grass is not always greener on the other side.

Peace.

I am the new 18 years old girl

2009-07-10T00:56:00.006+08:00

Hello.

Yes, I understand that its been a long time since I blog a decent long post. I hope this will inspire me to continue blogging on blogger.com because honestly, my blog has been collecting cobwebs and I feel that I write to no one. There are only few reasons why I keep up with the blog and social networking. Its to relate to friends who are still friends no matter the distances, you know who you are.

On 09 July was my special day & I had the best time of my life to date.

Thanks to my Parents who made love 18 years and 9 months ago. Thanks to my Mom who bared with the pain I put her through the nine months and especially the whole night 18 years ago, trying to get me out. Thanks to my Dad & elder brother for tolerating my everything since I was a baby & thanks to my two younger brothers who will kill me for calling them the most cutest darlings in my whole entire life for being the most annoying yet loving siblings I could've ever asked for. I love my family and nothing beats them.

Thank you to ALL who wished me through every means possible - SMS, Phone calls, MSN, FB, Upfront, Tagboard, E-Mail, etc.. I really appreciate all the effort made. If I were to name all of you down; the post will be filled with names instead of my true appreciation. However, its worth the lengthy post. You can try finding your name in the list. Sorry if you did wish me but your name is not in it. Perhaps I forgot to jot it all in. Please, I beg your forgiveness.

My day was remarkable. Indeed, as cliche as it is. My 18th birthday, like most other teenagers, was my most memorable and greatest birthday to date! Unlike other birthdays, this was special. Well, I guess I should really expect the unexpected. I really didn't see all this coming for my birthday! It is indeed great not to have expectations. HAHA!

Since the clock striked midnight on 09 July, CA was the first to surprise me at my door step with his present for me - Reebok shoes! I was on the phone with Rhoma when my mom knocked on my bedroom door saying I had a delivery for me at the doorstep. I was jumping and shrieking with joy when I saw CA at my doorstep. He was back from breaking session at TJCC and dropped by my place because its my birthday before sending his someone back home. After which, Rhoma understood that my special hours meant busy hours for me so he wished me over the phone and as soon as he hung up, Danish called trying to prank me but failed and wished me over the phone. So sweet of him! Then the sms-es and MSN pop ups started flooding in. I was smiling from ear to ear. However, I had to sleep so I logged off from the online portal and head off to lala land.

Woke up to a tonful of SMS-es and was greeted with a birthday song as I entered class although I was late - as usual. Lesson was on my side of the universe. Science was about Biology! :D Sadly, almost the whole class had no idea what Bio was all about so it was pretty much a hurdle but I got through it all with a huge smile on my face. After class, it was a meet up with the wonderful course mates! Met my besties Ella & Nadiah together with Cicakman & Enwei. It was great that Ryan could meet up, its not always that she's around. Sam was destinied to bump into Nadiah so that she could come meet us up as well. So all of us, mostly me was hyped up and being a whore to Ryan's semi-DSLR. I bought a few bites and chocolate milkshake while joking out with the great people of RP.

The clock strikes 5 and I had to head off to meet my Date - Nurul Syasya Bin Rosli! :)
I walked out of school with Ella and met Syasya at the traffic light. Was shocked when suddenly someone clinged onto my arm, it was Rhoma. His friends behind then started singing a birthday song & I was really ecstatic. Thank you so much! We all walked all the way to Woodlands MRT & then me & Syasya parted ways from Ella who met up with her friend at Serangoon MacD & Rhoma who went off to chill with his mates. I thought it was just me and Syasya but no. We headed off to Jurong East to meet up with Syafeeqa!! :D

Head up to Vivo to catch the sunset which we didn't really manage to catch. So we had dinner at TCRS - go figure. I had my fair share of bimbotic moments there. Drop that. So, I trashed the idea of watching a movie and just decided to chill on laughters and love. While chilling at Vivo Rooftop with Syasya as Syafeeqa excused herself to the toilet earlier, I did my RJ. Then Syasya went to pick Syafeeqa up cause we were chilling at a secluded spot. Breaking the golden silence was a birthday song, when I turned my head around I saw a lighted cake - My Birthday Cake! Tears was brimming and my voice was starting to choke even before I could realise it was trying to say something. I was so happy to blow my own candles that my girls had a second session for it! After the cake ceremony, just as I thought the surprise was all over, Syasya still had one more up her sleeve.

Syafeeqa covered my eyes with her hands and Syasya instructed me to put both my hands out. Syafeeqa started screaming like as if she saw some disgusting insect so being blind; I acted the same way - like a monkey who just dropped his banana to the sky (go figure). I thought Syasya was going to put 18 disgusting insects on my hands or something like that but no, she fixed a beautiful Baby Phat bracelet on my left wrist. The present was magnificent! The surprise was impromptu and perfect. I loved every bit of my 18th birthday!

After the long tiring special day, I got a free cab ride home. Home, where my family were so happy to see me. It was nice to hear Asy apologising for being as busy as he always is jamming with his band till he forgets my birthday and it feels good being able to share all this with Rhoma before posting it out for all. The best to this was that when Rhoma asked me what are my last words when it was a few minutes to 10th July, I said, "i do not have any last words for a special day for i believe that this special day is never ending (: " I meant every word.

When it was 10th July, he said, "HAPPY 18th + 1 day bUrStdaE Sara!!!!!" And he will wish me everyday as well - if he remembers. HAHA!

Hel finally came online after his long day at work! I shared my joy with him because I know he was curious as to how my day went. It was the best, I had.

List Of Appreciation:

CA
Rhoma
Danish
Syasya
Leena
Hel
Haidar
Liza
Syazwan
Pika
Fai Valentine
Suhaimi
Sherrynaah
Enwei
Nisa
Atika
Radiah
Khrl
Afiqah
Dee
Aydah
Memnoch
Shino
Irfan
Hafi
Fatal
Nizam Jin
Haris
Scriptz
Predicx
Fate
Isnaidi
Jamil
Adi Danial
Fatal
Dopestyler
Kira
Lin Xi
Oneski
Arif Shephard
Syafeeqa Lil Nutz
Ryan
Nadiah
Fahmi
Ina
E35F & Lee Han Min
Ivan
Naqi
Wak Sani
Hariz Rizzy
Sam
Nurul
Amalina
Liyana
Liyana friend
Izzat
Zulaiha
Asyura
Melvin
Shawn
Mimi
Ella
Farhana
Xenia
Nida Amalina
Yasser
Dilly
Shimin
Syafeeqa E35F
Rhaimy
Atiqah
Maisarah
Safuan
Deeanaa Bmy
Miskz Efa
Syah
Meiting
Jocelyn
Ykid
Mira Melatah
Muzyeana Muzz
Hasween
Khairunnisa
Cat
Desiree
Maizurah
Aiman
Dian Raihanah
Fiz Funky Nutz
Adel
Miz Killah
Aidil Shah
Shasha
Feedaree
Marsh
Noorizan

Yes, the names appeared in order of who wished first and such. Really, it was CA because he called me on 09th June thinking it was my birthday. On 6th July too. Dee was really confident thinking 08th July was 09th July. Azahar thought 07th July was my birthday. Fuhh, July babies must really be hot. ;)

Really, no joke about being hot. I offered Danial my Ribena today and the moment he took a sip of it, his nose started bleeding. I told you so, earthlings! :) Good Night.

I had a great fantabulous magnificent 18th birthday! Alhamdulillah.
A new year, a new path, a new journey. The same person.

Good Night. :)

Stay up

2009-07-03T04:24:00.003+08:00

Hello.

Maybe its where you and I are suppose to be. Everytime I tell myself to hold on to the tiniest hope I have for us, you disappear. You said you're sorry for making me feel this way and like all the other times, you light up the faith in me again. Like all the other times too, you fade away right after.

So why I ask myself over and over again. Why do I keep holding on to this habit of believing things between us will work out well one day? Why do I keep trusting every word you say? Why am putting up with this, all for you?

I'm sorry, I want to give up but I find it hard to. Will somebody help me, please..

Really Sorry.

2009-06-29T03:34:00.002+08:00

Hello.

I can't promise that I'll be back.
Taggers play a part in motivating bloggers.

Beats & Breaks 2

2009-06-26T19:29:00.003+08:00

Hello.

Friday, 3rd July 2009
7:30pm-8.15pm
Esplanade Outdoor Theatre
Featured on WFS's solo track together with Jid & Fatal

Show your support! Come down & have a blast!
Spread the word.

MY TUMBLR

2009-06-26T15:50:00.002+08:00

Hello.

I am a good multi-tasker.

"pre-eminentthoughts" have been tumblr-ed!
Check it out, click on photo above.

eLearning needs a fuck.

2009-06-25T16:26:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Bby, I wish everything between us will work out well. You know I keep telling myself to hold on to the tiniest faith I have in us. I pray you will stop disappearing.

If time is what you need, you can trust I give it to you. Afterall, this is not the first.

p/s: I'm still not over you.

Stayed Up!

2009-06-24T01:57:00.003+08:00

Hello.

I've been staying up really late these days. A whole lot knows I'm addicted to The Sims 3.

BUT ............

Tonight is different. No Sims 3. No online movies. It ain't got to do with any boy. It's all me.
I prepared the PPT for my Enterprise module later on in the day. 12 slides done, I'm fucking happy and so god damn proud of myself. Given the exhaustion I am currently feeling, I still had the drive to complete my intentions. I know who my team mates are and I'm not looking forward. Sheemateepooguns! No offence intended. Just my two cents on the mates.

Everyone has their own cup of tea. You just happen not to be mine. It don't make a difference if I'm yours or not 'cause I got a whole lot of cups to fill, not just yours.

NOW, its time to sleep. Night earthlings! :)

p/s: "Sheemateepooguns" is a random word I have just started using. COPYRIGHT, ok bye!

Dirty Joke

2009-06-22T19:55:00.004+08:00

Hello.

Suprisingly, a dirty joke was shared after dinner with the family. I'm really surprised to hear this from my parents!

A son came home from work only to see his newly wedded wife crying upon seeing his dad being arrested. Clueless of what was going on, he asked his wife.

Son: Dear, what happened?
Wife: Ask your own dad!

Son visited his dad at the police station to question his dad personally. He was surprised as to why his wife is so pissed off and acted like as if his Dad deserved to be arrested.

Son: Dad, what happened?
Dad: Son, when you were a baby.. you suck on my wife's breasts and I couldn't say anything to that. Now that you have a wife of your own, why am I arrested for sucking your wife's breasts?
Son: *stunned & speechless*

ME AND MY SIBLINGS BURST OUT LAUHING UPON HEARING THIS! Crazy I tell you!
What a good laugh I had after a long, hectic, tiring week. Pssst! I'm so addicted to The Sims 3, I swear I just won't stop playing once I start. Haha! I'm off to do my RJ and start playing. :D

Miss me. ;)

2009-06-21T02:00:00.002+08:00

Hello.

I am happy. So god damn content. Why?
Because the one love I have had growing up with me has finally touched me once again.
*Jumps for joy!*

Cloud 9

2009-06-15T15:22:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Take a peek!

(Click to enlarge)

Oh, I hate the thoughts that comes to mind but I was on cloud nine when I read that. Aww, my lyrics relates to a person! I earned by bragging rights alright! HAHA!

Epilogue

2009-06-12T22:33:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Don't judge women by what you see in paintings and statues. Judge them only by what you yourself know about the women in your life. The day any man understands any woman will be the day the world comes to an end. Men are hateful, contrary creatures who say they want goddesses to put on pedestals. Once they have them up there, they rip off the halo, tear off the gown, slice off the wings so they can't fly and then kick the pedestal away so the woman falls at his feet and he can scream out as he kicks her, tramp! - or worse.

No offence.
Credits goes to A.C Andrews.

Blank

2009-06-12T01:36:00.002+08:00

Hello.

I really feel like blogging. Feeding you people with the nothings thats been happening in my life lately. However, my eyes are real heavy; aside the fact it is already big. Holidays are almost over. Me & Danish already planned our 1st break meal! Other than that, I had a great time with Ella today. Drag Me To Hell was a really great movie! Ok, I can't blog anymore. I'm off.

Patrick Love!

2009-06-10T22:20:00.003+08:00

Hello.

Read and laugh!

(9:58 PM) Sara Nadiah:

Initiated a file transfer

(9:58 PM) ραт:

WTF
LOL

(9:58 PM)

Transfer of "WHAT THE FUCK!!.dib" is complete.

(9:58 PM) Sara Nadiah:

u can commit suicide by suffocating urself in between it

(9:59 PM) ραт:

omg
yaa
hahahha
omg
lol

(9:59 PM) ραт:

talk abt dyin happy
ahhaha

(9:59 PM) Sara Nadiah:

HAHH!!

(9:59 PM) ραт:

is it fake?
lol

(10:00 PM) Sara Nadiah:

i think so!
if its real, i think she'll just die!

(10:01 PM) ραт:	no bra size for her too tsk tsk
(10:01 PM)	You have canceled the Video Call.
(10:01 PM) Sara Nadiah:	tsk.
(10:01 PM) Sara Nadiah:	TAILOR MADE AH!
(10:02 PM) ραт:	LOL
(10:02 PM) ραт:	like she can like u know those mini umbrella s lol
(10:02 PM) Sara Nadiah:	HAHAHAHAHAH siao!
(10:03 PM) ραт:	hahah
(10:04 PM) Sara Nadiah:	you like right! dont wank to it
(10:05 PM) ραт:	LOL wtf see you better ahahah
(10:05 PM) Sara Nadiah:	HAHAHA! are you sending it to ur other friends?
(10:06 PM) ραт:	nop hahha not yet? hahahaha lol i doubt so la
(10:06 PM) Sara Nadiah:	not yet?!
(10:06 PM) ραт:	i bet they've seen bigger hahahah
(10:06 PM) Sara Nadiah:	I DOUBT SO! lol
(10:07 PM) Sara Nadiah:	that's like the most humongest ones ive seen!
(10:07 PM) ραт:	hahah like double Zs haha xD
(10:07 PM) Sara Nadiah:	haahaha!
(10:11 PM) ραт:	tsk tsk tsk
(10:11 PM) Sara Nadiah:	what are you doing? are you still attempting to be sexy?
(10:12 PM) ραт:	lol what's that mean? hahaha
(10:13 PM) Sara Nadiah:	however u interpret it is what it means p" src="http://www.blogger.com/Images/MsgPlus_Img0637.png">
(10:13 PM) ραт:	lol wait arent i already sexy? hahahha
(10:13 PM) ραт:
(10:13 PM) Sara Nadiah:
(10:16 PM) ραт:	hahah meow
(10:17 PM) Sara Nadiah:	hjahah!
(10:18 PM) ραт:	what about u? still tryin to be sexy?
(10:18 PM) Sara Nadiah:	never tried, how ah?
(10:18 PM) ραт:	like
(10:19 PM) ραт:	go to a mirror mess up your hair
(10:19 PM) ραт:	stare thru your reflection's eyes stare through it! and
(10:19 PM) ραт:	put a banana in your ear!
(10:20 PM) Sara Nadiah:	HAHAHAH THATS HILARIOUS!!!!!!!

(10:23 PM) ραт:	LOL no really! you should try im serious!
(10:23 PM) Sara Nadiah:	hahha! you do first ah!
(10:24 PM)	ραт has changed his/her status to Busy
(10:24 PM) ραт:	i did already waaat when im sad i put a big yellow banana in my ear
(10:27 PM) Sara Nadiah:	WTF! PATRICK!??! i dont want to love you anymore ah!
(10:28 PM) ραт:	lol whyyyy? dont be like that!!! i love you!!!!!
(10:29 PM) Sara Nadiah:	bcs you put a big yellow banana in ur ear! i dont like the colour yellow, i like green!
(10:29 PM) ραт:	well thenn
(10:29 PM) Sara Nadiah:	is there a red banana? or white?!
(10:29 PM) ραт:	a green banana!! i'll paint them for you
(10:29 PM) Sara Nadiah:	PAINT IT WHITE AND I WILL LOVE YOU DEEP DEEP VERY STRONG!
(10:29 PM) ραт:	okay! deal!
(10:29 PM) Sara Nadiah:
(10:30 PM) ραт:	i dont have to paint it i'll just peel it
(10:30 PM) Sara Nadiah:	HAHAHAHAH!
(10:30 PM) ραт:	now love me!
(10:30 PM) Sara Nadiah:	dont waaaaaaaaaaaant
(10:30 PM) ραт:	but whyyyyyyy omg
(10:30 PM) Sara Nadiah:	u must PROVE to me! that you do that stupid banana thing! hahahaha
(10:31 PM) ραт:	ehem FOR YOU BABY, I'LL DO ANYTHING
(10:31 PM) Sara Nadiah:	OMG! you must be so bored patrick............... lol

(10:33 PM) ραт:	ahahha xD
(10:33 PM) ραт:	ehh fun right ahhah
(10:33 PM) Sara Nadiah:	FUN-NY! hahahhahahahahahaha
(10:34 PM) ραт:	hahha

I know you're wondering about the picture, enjoy people. Laugh on this as loud and as hard as you want to! I miss 5-a-dozen!

Sara, then and now.

2009-06-09T00:06:00.005+08:00

Hello.

I just feel like updating. Since I'm working tomorrow, I've decided to just blog about something simple. Me! Back then and now. So, let pictures help. Since most of my RP friends have been wanting to see me with long hair. Here it is...

Ok, done. Bye!

Her 17th!

2009-06-07T09:45:00.004+08:00

Hello.

Happy 17th Birthday Mimi! :D
God gave a gift to the world when you were born— a person who loves, who cares, who sees a person’s need and fills it, who encourages and lifts people up, who spends energy on others rather than herself, someone who touches each life she enters and makes a difference in the world because ripples of kindness flow outward as each person you have touched, touches others. Your birthday deserves to be a national holiday, because you are a special treasure
for all that you’ve done. May the love you have shown to others return to you, multiplied.
I wish you the happiest of birthdays and many, many more, so that others have time to appreciate you as much as I do.

On your birthday I wish you much pleasure and joy;
I hope all of your wishes come true.
May each hour and minute be filled with delight,
And your birthday be perfect for you!

I love you.

♥♥♥

Change is inevitable, its a consistant medium of revolution
You can't hide from it and you know can't deny it
I admit that I have changed but what stays the same is my passion
I don't rock like an old shool kiddo, I ain't Miss-I-Need-Attention
You can be the hater to my swag, I thank you cause you keep me moving
What you have is what I had and I don't think this is confusing
I may not be respected like the one with the Knowledge
But at least I know I'm respected even with the act that I put on stage
Serenade ain't just an ego and Pristine ain't an accessory
What defines me is non visible for you cats to see
This person and her words came with inspiration inside me
So who is she?
There's a difference you all see from Serenade Sheerz to Serenade Pristine
Who I am is who I be.
A mammal I am, Allah made me more than an animal
I can't be bothered if I'm labeled as cocky or a minimal
All that I do now is mine, and if my passion was visible,
Bitch, you'll be blind.

First Aid & Its Aftermath

2009-06-03T21:15:00.003+08:00

Hello.

I am exhausted. I've been loosing appetite. I am sick. I am going to let the pictures fill you in. I need sleep. I need rest. :(

Chilling at Cafe Esplanade after First Aid Course Day 2 with Sam & Rhoma

Ivan, Rhoma, Sam & Me - Casualties!

I've been spending alot of my RP time with Sam. She's the wackiest freakiest wacko freak. Haha! We'll hit KFC after Swimming and laugh our ass off! Haha! Love you babe. :)

Winking Competition

2009-06-02T19:55:00.003+08:00

Hello.
This is my dearest baby sister whom I dearly love from the bottom of my heart. Everything she does pisses the fuck out of me but still it is amazing how her irritating and annoying ways simply fill my day with joy more than the ratio of how much she throws bullcrap at me. She always like to macam-paham and sometimes she act like as if she is ALREADY 16, when shes not; yet. :P
She thinks she looks good without specs and squinching her eyes makes her look better. Well, I think not. She don't want to wear contacts because she thinks taking lessons for learning how to put on contacts need to pay & she don't want to waste her money to pay?! BUT she wants to ruin her eyesight even further. See how ironic this FIFTEEN year old girl can get? Tsk3. Her name is Nurul Syasya and she has never been kissed because she always sell expensive.

This was the picture taken when we had a short winking competition. Obviously, I won. Because Syasya CANNOT wink! The picture is EVIDENCE!!

Ok, da bye! I want to watch Monsters VS Aliens soooooooooooooooon! :)

How to sleep well?

2009-06-02T01:16:00.003+08:00

Hello.

This post is specially dedicated to Mimi and every other who finds difficulty in sleeeping. Like I had, last night! Irritatingggggg~

Nothing is more frustrating than not being able to sleep. Tossing and turning. Your mind is racing, going over everything that happened today. Night noises keep you awake. What can you do? There ARE things you can do! Read on and learn some new tricks to sleep well. These tips are also known as "Sleep Hygiene."

Sleep only when sleepy

This reduces the time you are awake in bed.

If you can't fall asleep within 20 minutes, get up and do something boring until you feel sleepy

Sit quietly in the dark or read the warranty on your refrigerator. Don't expose yourself to bright light while you are up. The light gives cues to your brain that it is time to wake up.

Don't take naps

This will ensure you are tired at bedtime. If you just can't make it through the day without a nap, sleep less than one hour, before 3 pm.

Get up and go to bed the same time every day

Even on weekends! When your sleep cycle has a regular rhythm, you will feel better.

Refrain from exercise at least 4 hours before bedtime

Regular exercise is recommended to help you sleep well, but the timing of the workout is important. Exercising in the morning or early afternoon will not interfere with sleep.

Develop sleep rituals

It is important to give your body cues that it is time to slow down and sleep. Listen to relaxing music, read something soothing for 15 minutes, have a cup of caffeine free tea, do relaxation exercises.

Only use your bed for sleeping

Refrain from using your bed to watch TV, pay bills, do work or reading. So when you go to bed your body knows it is time to sleep. Sex is the only exception.

Stay away from caffeine, nicotine and alcohol at least 4-6 hours before bed

Caffeine and nicotine are stimulants that interfere with your ability to fall asleep. Coffee, tea, cola, cocoa, chocolate and some prescription and non-prescription drugs contain caffeine. Cigarettes and some drugs contain nicotine. Alcohol may seem to help you sleep in the beginning as it slows brain activity, but you will end end up having fragmented sleep.

Have a light snack before bed

If your stomach is too empty, that can interfere with sleep. However, if you eat a heavy meal before bedtime, that can interfere as well. Dairy products and turkey contain tryptophan, which acts as a natural sleep inducer. Tryptophan is probably why a warm glass of milk is sometimes recommended.

Take a hot bath 90 minutes before bedtime

A hot bath will raise your body temperature, but it is the drop in body temperature that may leave you feeling sleepy. Read about the study done on body temperature below.

Trouble Sleeping? Chill Out! - A press release from the journal Sleep about the significance in body temperature before sleep

Make sure your bed and bedroom are quiet and comfortable

A hot room can be uncomfortable. A cooler room along with enough blankets to stay warm is recommended. If light in the early morning bothers you, get a blackout shade or wear a slumber mask. If noise bothers you, wear earplugs or get a "white noise" machine.

Use sunlight to set your biological clock

As soon as you get up in the morning, go outside and turn your face to the sun for 15 minutes.

Credits to:
http://www.stanford.edu/~dement/howto.html

As Natural As It Gets

2009-05-31T20:04:00.003+08:00

Hello.

We all grow up. We all change.
The air of melancholy makes me wonder of the beautiful things life brings but is unappreciated. The smell of rainy days brings happiness to draught countries but whispers of complains to myself. I can't bring myself to accept the inevitable fact that one day, all will come to an end.

Somehow, these words of his keeps playing in my head..

"I can have all the girls in the world but why have all if I can have Sara Nadiah?"

As of this very minute, I'm smiling but it ain't for you. I've grown up but I still don't understand how you fall hard on your own words even though we're through.

Naturall, I'm someone you know you can't forget. Generally, we were the best the world ever got to see. Greatest story ever told..

No, I'm not okay but I will be in time.

Fuck

2009-05-28T01:46:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Suckas don't know with who they be messin with.
Haters only hate cause they know I'm way better.

Theres only ONE Sara Nadiah. Ain't one like none, she's the only Serenade Pristine.
You trip over her, you ain't ever gettin up.
You trip for her, you be limpin for the rest of your life.
Don't get me started when you start to fall.

The girl is only human, fuck shit she got ego.
This confidence is natural, the cockiness and arrogance is just stereotyped by others who can't pull it off like I. So put a fucking leaf in it.

Just Sara.

2009-05-26T23:51:00.004+08:00

Hello.

If you think your baby picture is the cutest, you thought wrong! (Except for Fakir, damn he was a real cute baby I swear!) Anyway, I am feeling bored and random.

Name: Sara Nadiah binte Zakariah
Age: 17
Birth date: 09 July 1991
Born in: Singapore
Raised in: Singapore
Current residence: Jurong West
Nationality: Singaporean
Horoscope Sign: Cancer
Personality: Ungentle unique abnormalistic superhuman. :)
Current hairstyle: Shoulder length, straight
Fashion style: Pull-Out-of-Closet
Spoken languages: English, Malay
Learning languages: -NA-
Instrument: Trumpet, Cornet, French horn & Keyboard.
Significant-other: Is yet to find me.

{ WISHES }

1. Own a Samsung G400.
2. Fix the bloody AC in my room!!!!!!!!!!!!

{ FAV ARTISTE }

1. Lupe Fiasco
2. Jill Scotts
3. Kanye West
4. Remy Ma
5. Eve
6. Linkin Park
7. Neyo
8. Beyonce
9. Wu-Tang
10. Jason Mraz

{ FAVORITES }

Favorite Food: A great chicken meal!
Favorite Music genre: Hip Hop, Rap, RnB, Trip Hop
Favorite Actor: Johnny Depp
Favorite Actress: Anne Hathaway
Favorite Movie genre: Thriller, Mystery, Sci-Fi, Comedy, Romance, Moral, History
Favorite Left 4 Dead player: Louis
Favorite Countries: Never been further fthen KL
Favorite colors: White, Red, Green, Brown, Gold

Ohhh, have you ever had a boy who seems to be the girl in almost every conversation you both have? I'm sure I have!

Intentions

2009-05-26T00:15:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Did you miss me? ;)
Hide all

Pardon me for the week's silence. I had a rough week. Juggling class presentations, module UTs, preparing for my come-back performance, work & personal commitments was really tough for this 17 year old. Glad I got through it. Oh, did I forget to mention that I had pre-reading articles to go through for Enterprise modules? Yeah, that too. However, glad to say on a frictional side of emotions that this is the last week for first term. Two weeks of holidays approaching, time to earn a couple of CE points and catch up with sleep! :D Sounds like a plan already. I'm all set for holidays. Well, work is another sector - I want more moolahs nigguh!

Family Affair III was remarkable! Felt good to finally be performing again. I'm not satisfied though, this is a good thing cause it means there's more to expect from the pristine one. Thanks to Abang Fazli for giving me the opportunity and thanks to all who showed the support. There's definitely a difference I must add.

To fill you in, I've been holding up pretty well. I'm glad to have the people around me and at times I just can't find the words to say to the ones I truly appreciate in life. If you're wondering about my love life; Well, I'm not dating anyone and I'm not falling either. Suprisingly, I'm pretty much contented although there are moments whereby I still think of Derek when loneliness calls and seeing other couples just pinches a small part of me. Still, I am strong enough to overcome this because I'm still alive and nobody could say it better than Mr West himself, "N-n-now that don't kill me, (Do it faster, make us stronger) Can only make me stronger".

This Friday, I am Rachel Grey Summers a.k.a Marvel Girl. No idea who? Google her. (Hel & RP thought me this, lol!)

Peace!

p/s: Sheeq, get well soon! :)

It happened!

2009-05-17T04:20:00.004+08:00

Check out the Hip Hop Mammoth Shoot: http://www.flickr.com/photos/mr36

It was a great shoot. Thanks to all who came down and made it happen. Big ups for Mr36 himself, Yasin for organizing it. Next up Family Affair 3! You cats got your pre-sale tickets? Don't miss it.

Peace.

Knock You Down

2009-05-15T02:00:00.003+08:00

Hello.

Hafi, my martian linked me to them and I can't stop looping them. I have downloaded the video and bluetoothed it to my hp to serenade me to sleep since Fie refused to sing (which is a good thing). Thanks fieeee for linking me! Nice uhhh. Anyway, we both think Kris will win American Idol. Damn it, he has to win it! He's gorgeous, charming and have a god-damn-my-saliva-drooling-kinda voice!

Okay, I really need to sleep now. Its 2.04AM and tomorrow is Math module, shit! :(

Pool!

2009-05-10T23:34:00.002+08:00

Hello.

I had a great weekend. :)

Friday was spent at work and it was the last day I'll be working with Maria cs she'll be flying back to Phillipines. Monday is her last day but I ain't working on Monday. I wish Maria all the best, it was a good experience working with her. She thought me alot. However, I got a bad news about Gramps when I had my break after a busy hour at work handling a birthday party alone. I scoot off from work at 11pm on the dot but mom asked me to head home, so I did as told.

I was supposedly to attend Rina & Boi's engagement with Kasira but Kas had last minute plans and I felt that visiting my Gramps is much more important. Initially I canceled meeting up with Adi for cheesecake cause I thought its best I was by my Gramps but he was awake and well when I came for a visit. The rest of the family members were relieved and very glad. I thought Gramps how to play "Pepsi-Cola" (which Dee do not know how to play!) and I won. Haha! I wanted to head off to meet Adi at PS when the fella texted me to meet him at 7pm but mom asked me to wait for awhile. At approx 6.30pm, we left Gramps ward and headed to the cafeteria where I treat my parents and then left for PS. (Aki was queueing infront of me and I didn't know it was him! Hehhhhh!) I was late to meet Adi who was waiting with Albert & Syafique. I felt bad, I swear. We all had dinner at LJS by Citibank before Syafique headed off to meet his friends. The 3 of us then walked around and our plan of getting a cheesecake at Rocky Master's backfired because they didn't have it! :( We walked all the way to Lido to meet up with Syafique again before we ventured a secret place. The place responsible for the ugly blue black on my left knee. I fell and hurt myself and dirtied my jeans, my favourite pair - mind you! Its all good tho cause Adi and I went to watch X-Men Origins: Wolverine (again, for me). After the show, I called Syasya cs I know she finish work already and I met up with her and had supper at TCC before heading back to her crib. Which we were locked out cs her parents were fast asleep. So we bunk to Nad's crib which was 3 blocks behind.

I was suppose to meet Fatal on Sunday but he's having a celebration for Mother's Day so I met up with Dee and the usuals - Aza - her bf, Azahar & Rajiv. We headed off to Bukit Batok Club CSC and played pool for a good 2 hours. It was my first time and I beat my own teacher on my first game. Azaharrrrrrrr, whoooohoooo!!~ :D Hehhh, I was trashed by Aza and Dee though. -.- We had dinner at KFC before heading home. Now, I wanna sleep. I can't belive I'm schooling tmr! Ughhhh! Till next time, assholes.

Nights!

Life's Simple Pleasure

2009-05-09T18:10:00.002+08:00

You'll never thought anyone would blog here. I'm at the cardiac unit at NUH with my whole paternal family. We're all glad my grandad is well. Monday will be the observation day and I pray for the best. I'm off to meet the naked man at Science Ctr.

Samsung G400

2009-05-06T00:33:00.004+08:00

Hello.

I am Power Ranger E35F's very own Yellow Ranger! Ok shut up. My class fucking united. Be jealous. >.<

My current SE K660i is pretty much meeting its death sentence or prolly gotten a life of its own because its been restarting automatically. For once, SE hp is acting really bad cs its starting to lag. Okay, enough of dragging the negatives. Bottomline is, I want to change phone! :D

I'm aiming for Samsung G400. Tell me more about it and feel free to be the asshole who puts me in a dilemma. Quit telling me about SE X1 'cause I can't multi-task with it so forget it.

Anyway, I had a super duper careless time last night which leaded to an accident at home. Damn! I'm sorry Papa. :(

Like as if my vomitting and coughs ain't bad enough for me, the smoke yesterday caused my nose to misbehave. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, I want to be fit as a fiddle! NOW NOW NOW! >=(

Anyway, meet Yisheng! She's god-damn talented! Her O Level artwork was fantastic!

Then Ian wanted to be in the picture, so there he is at the back,

More next time, I'm fucking tired. Yesterday was a dreadful traumatic night. I need my sleep damn it. :(

Ok, bye!

Shit happens.

2009-05-01T19:15:00.004+08:00

Hello.

Its been awhile since I blogged something on a more serious note. I'm a stalker to life and I'm not that good of an observer but so far, I've observed and seen for myself that shit happens. Like someone who was very important in my life once said, shit happens even if you're extra careful. There were times whereby I felt a serious feel of rebel to accept the fact that things don't always go as planned. I've learnt that adapting to this lifestyle doesn't make me happy 'cause a fact is that, I can never live with disappointment.

I understand that thoughts are things. Our thoughts are not just wispy little clouds drifting through our heads. Your thoughts are things. They are biochemical electrical impulses. They are waves of energy that, as far as I can tell, penetrate all time and space. Thought is action in rehearsal. Your thoughts are powerful. They are real, they are measurable, they are energy that keeps you going either in a positive way or negative. Its what you decide to think about that puts you in an angle of how you look at the shit that happens in your life. Every single thought we have is a statement of our desires to the universe. Every single thought we have generates a physiological change in our body. I am a product of all of the thoughts I've had thought, feelings I have felt and actions I have taken up till now. I figured that the thoughts I think today, the feelings I feel today and the actions I take today will determine my experiences tomorrow. So I find it imperative that we learn to think and behave in a positive way. Be optimistic, at the same time remember to be realistic.

Picture life as a game of boomerang. Our thoughts, deeds and words eventually return to us sooner or later, with astounding accuracy. I remember someone saying this to me, "What the mind can conceive and believe, he can achieve" this quote is very strong and impacts me most when I feel like giving up.

Everything you see happening is the consequences of that which you are. Everytime I've done something that doesn't feel right, it ends up not being right. I've grown up to be wise and smart enough to know that there are no mistakes, no coincidences. All events; good or bad are blessings given to us to learn from. You must bring yourself into alignment with what you are asking for. That's what joy is, that's what appreciation is, that's what the feeling of passion is. But when you're feeling despair or fear or anger, those are strong indicators that you are not right now in alignment of what you are asking for. This paragraph may be hard for some of you to understand. I don't expect some assholes to comprehend my broad mind when its at its best.

When a shit happens, dwell not on the past. Use it to illustrate a point, then leave it behind. Nothing really matters except what you do now in this instant of time. From this moment onwards, you can be an entirely different poerson. filled with love and understanding, ready with an outstretched hand, uplifted and positive in every thought and deed. Many questioned me and some others wonder how a the after math of a break up with Derek was a breeze although he was someone I felt so much love only to know that he cheated on me. Shouldn't I be heartbroken and in pieces, wishing things didn't happen this way and praying each night that someway or somehow a miracle may happen and that Derek will once again be in my life and all will be alright then only weeks later realise that life is so much more than crying over spilled milk and eventually force myself to move on? I'm sorry to disappoint some but I know my stand right now have made others proud of me. I admit I broke down when I fell hard for the one who stopped being there to cushion it. However, I'm glad the first person I called was the right one to put me back where I belong. He made me realise that once I replace negative thoughts with positive ones, I'll start having positive results. His words sets me thinking that I cannot become what I need to be - a happy person by remaining what I am - a broken hearted girl.

All of you bear witness to my say that I know what my purpose in life is. The purpose of life is to live life of purpose. Each of us is born with a unique life purpose. The thing we set our mind on is the thing we ultimately become. A few years ago, I remember asking a few people on my MSN contacts if they ever had a taste of happiness only because I was feeling down and out. Now I've understood that the art of being happy lies in the power of extracting happiness from common things. Most people are searching for happiness. They're looking for it. They're trying to find it in someone or something outside of themselves. That's a fundamental mistake. Happiness is something that you are, and it comes from the way you think.

Shit happens in life, no doubt about that but its how your first reaction that affects how you look at it the minute after. When things fall apart and you feel like it'll take you forever to climb up the stairs again, just take the first step in faith. You don't have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step. You will eventually reach your destination. Afterall, the journey is the destination.

I'm the shit that happens. :)

Need for answers

2009-04-30T13:03:00.006+08:00

Hello.

Drown yourself in my words. I'm connecting with my emotions but that doesn't mean I'm being emotional. Know the difference.

I was in class, webcamwhoring and chatting with Sheeq but then a gush of indifference overwhelms me without warning. Suddenly, I'm quiet. Suddenly, I'm an introvert. Suddenly, I'm not who the class thinks I am. This is just another phase. Let's get it over with. :)

Sleepout!

2009-04-25T13:48:00.005+08:00

Hello.

Last 3 days was Dee the girl who cannot ride a bicycle boyfriend's 18th birthday. Today, they'll be celebrating it at ECP and I have no idea how to get there! Its not funny, so don't laugh.

I survived first week of poly and I got my first couple of A's already! Yay me! Good for me, my classmates are a super great bunch of people to work with. Its amazing how we all get along and bonded with each other within the first week! Best part was, majority of us wore a blue top on Thursday when we had our Math module. Perhaps most of us was feeling, blue since it was Math. (Which explains right? lol) On Friday, we decided to rock in red. Word of mouth got it Monday is black. Haha! Uniform uh my class? :P E35F just rock my power ranger boxers man!

I have great mates in class, I have greater mates in school! Putting the fact that I have a few lovely heads in the same poly, the new friends I made during Orientation are super extrovert people who I can just get along with. Hey, this don't mean I'm forgetting and literally putting my old friends aside. I'm getting the hang of poly life - congratulations & yay me! :)

The best picture you'll ever get from a girl who is confident to express her love for herself even if its the most ugliest face you've ever seen. Now, who dares to fall in love with her?

HAHAHAHAH!

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I'm off to ECP, go google for spider porn assholes. xD
Bye!

Bcs Dee tagged me..

2009-04-23T17:09:00.002+08:00

1:Besides your lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
My neck.

2:How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
Fresh! :D

3:Who was the last person you took a photo with?
Ella & Ryan.

4:Would you consider yourself to be spoilt?
Nope. I'm not spoilt.

5:Would you ever donate blood?
I donated blood last year.

6:Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Yes, a couple.

7:Do you want someone dead?
Yeah. Just die bitch.

8:What does your last text message say?
"Sara this is Freaky Z. Please call me back. Urgent."

9:What are you thinking of right now?
I'm thinking of what to perform for 23rd May.

10:Do you wish someone was with you right now?
Yes, my significant other. Where oh where is he?

11:What time did you go to sleep last night?
Around 1AM. Worrrrrk.

12:Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
At the shop near my house. Why? I know nice. :D Haha!

13: Is someone on your mind right now?
Yes, Ella. Eh eh eh. LOL!

14: Who was the last person to text you?
Freaky Z.

15: 10 people tagged to do this quiz:
1. Izzy Bizzzy
2. Deeranae
3. Syasya
4. CA (when he reads this or when he come back from Taiwan)
5. Feedaree
6. Rey Roc
7. Sheeq
8. Mimi
9. Ryan
10. Ella

16: Who is 2 having a relationship with?
NIiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii-zam. :D hahahha. (Who works in JT should know the songg)

17: Is 3 a male or a female?
FEMALE!!!!

18: If 7 and 10 get together will that be a good thing?-
They aint no fugging lesbians mannnnnn.

19: What is Number 1 studying about?
Biomedical Science. But with no intention of being a doctor. Haha!

20: Is Number 4 single?
No.

21: Say something about Number 2?
Super hyper and fucking random. :D Haha!

22: What do you think about Number 3 and 6 being together?-
OMG! Lil dope & Young dope! hahahahahahha! Monique will murder Syasya man!

23: Describe Number 9.
Pretty and really sweet.

24: What will you do if Number 6 and 7 fight?
Ahhhh... That'd be awkward. Super.

25: Do you like Number 8?
I love her!

It don't come no thicker

2009-04-21T21:48:00.003+08:00

Hello.

It takes two muscles to crinkle the eyes, two to pull up the lip corners and nose, two to elevate the mouth angle, and two to pull the mouth corners sideways to form a genuine smile. Anyone can do that & I'm really good at it. So good at it that I appear so friendly and approachable that people think I'm a problem-free-happy-go-lucky person 24/7-365. Which is not true most of the time.

I think this is contradicting but I'll let it out anyway. I don't understand what some people set their lives to. Approaching their twenties but stagger when questioned what they want out of their actions. I understand fun is a factor everyone wants in their life, I want it too but there's always a limit to everything. When proposed a "What do you live for?" question, how many have a solid answer? I live to make a change, if not to the world at least to some people. I live to know who I really am. I live to find out my purpose of existance. I dare to raise this because I have an answer, in fact you read three of it. I seek comprehension of misunderstandings between actions and conversations.

I believe I'm not the only one with this point of view. Perhaps my words penetrate to you in a sense whereby it potrays me being an opposition of a party yet contradicting myself. This is only because I'm a victim of the situation & its fucking ridiculous to know that both parties are stubborn and reluctant. We (the people involved) know how long this matter has been ongoing. Especially me. Its hard to live my purpose knowing the both of you cannot get along. Now that the both of you are seperated, are you happy now? Tell me, what is it you truly want out of this? Fucking stop letting emotions get the best of you and quit putting your ego up so high you forget when its blood and blood, it don't come no thicker. I'm not a perfect person but I try to as perfect as a person that I am and I hope you see this effort of mine. I can choose to ignore the rough relationship you both are immune to but its me you both resort to when you miss each other. You both love each other and you know that better than anyone else. Why are you guys so fucking ridiculous to deny the obvious and choose to bury it under all the fake hatred and detests you put before each other? I don't fucking get it. It affects me in a way & I beg you both resolve this the best way possible.

You maybe the worst person anyone could ever wish for in their life and its hard to put up with you but someone's got to do it. I want you to know that I am glad to be that person who does it. Lately, I know it seems like I've given up on you but you're the only one I have as who you are. There ain't another and there never will be. You're a dirtbag and a pain in the ass and you never fail to make it impossible to love you. What's surprising is that, I am willing to struggle and manage to find a way to love you. I bet you know that I'll miss you. How you potray yourself to others is not who you really are. I dare admit that I know you inside out more than anyone does, you let it all eat you inside. Now look where it gets you, the feelings are just sharp aren't they? I can continue but it won't make a difference if you choose to hold your grudge and your stand against the other party. How many times have you been here? Wake up, time don't go on reverse. Stop drooding over mistakes made in the past. Face the moment of truth, admit your mistakes, apologise and amend yourself. Its a mystery why you, at your age, don't wonder the great things life has in store for you if you stop being childish. Learn the basics, know the rules - so you can break them properly. You can't live a teenager's life forever.

I understand you feel like as if he should give in to you. Don't you think he did his mistakes because he had no guidance? I had him to as a guide, who did he have? As much as I don't want to blame you, its clear for you to see for yourself. Now that he did as he was told, what you asked of him as early as 7AM this morning, are you happy? Are you really satisfied? How could it trigger you to let him listen to your ridiculous lust and let your emotion get the best of you?

I am utterly disappointed but what choice do I have in the relationship you both decide to live with? Like I said, I'm here to make a difference. Hence, if a difference is not achieved; it shows I've failed. Then, I'll leave cause sometimes giving up don't mean I'm weak. It only means I'm strong enough to let go. You know how I feel?

I'm like a tree and this situation is like a chainsaw. Go figure.

Another Phase

2009-04-20T23:56:00.002+08:00

Hello.

Like the picture, I'm stoning. I don't want to have a rebound man. Why the fuck am I still thinking of Derek?! Nabehhhh.

Orientation Camp

2009-04-19T16:55:00.005+08:00

Hello.

My FOP was great! I met up with Radi & Fazlee on first day and we all went to RP together and met Inah & Nida there. After registration, I head over to Nadiah Diana & her friends - Sam & Said. There were about 450 freshmen and I was in the best group of them all! :D Team LOL, lead by Eng Seng, Rizza & Hafeez. You can check out the fun we had throughout the 3 days over at the team's blog. Click here.

My team was made up of OAL students but unfortunately, none of us were classed together. We were active participants of every activity there was and we were super enthusiastic about beating SOH in the Principal's Cup Challenge. We didn't emerge as Champions but we did beat our huge rival. ;) I'm proud of my school! We were loud and hyper, it felt like there was nothing that could bring us down. Even when we were tired and all worn out, we still had each other's back.

I met my fellow classmates on the morning of Day 3 and they were pretty fun and motivating mates. I'm looking forward to share knowledge with them for this semester. What's shocking is, my class is right beside Liyana's (Dybz's bestfriend) class. After mock lesson, I met up with the other members of LOL and pimped out the team's blog before the performers for Jam & Hop got called out for practice.

We had 3 hours and after practice and cleaning up the steps, I slept my ass off on the classroom's floor till Domino Ripple was on. I was super tired! However, SHL's performers gave it their all and went all out to beat SOH (no offence) which we succeeded! Congratulations SHLs'!

After all the hype, victory run and photo-taking, we settled down for dinner before partying our ass off at Jam & Hop! Ella and me were dancing our soul out till Nadiah called us to grab our bags cs the SL's wanted to lock the classrooms up. My mates went home and I met up with Izzat, Fiky, Khai, Wan & Fatal for awhile before heading home. After which I dozed off after a good cold shower.

I was awoken the next morning by Dee's call at 9.15AM! It was a trip to the zoo with her, Aza & Azahar! I'll update on that when I get the pictures. I think this post is long enough to fill you guys in since the previous on on Wednesday. :)

I know this post is pretty boring because its too wordy. There's just so much pictures to post, so head over to the team's blog to view them all or headover to my FB! ;)